The 40 weekdays from Ash Wednesday until Easter observed by Christians as a season of fasting and penitence in preparation for Easter.
[Middle English lenten, lente, spring, Lent, from Old English lencten.]
for lent every year i give up one or two things, usually sweets and junk food. and it’s not so hard after awhile.
this year, i have toyed with the idea of giving up blogging for lent.
yikes. i can’t believe i actually wrote it.
when i thought about it, i experienced what i can only compare to the shakes, although i don’t really drink and have never done drugs, and have not been “addicted” to anything but sugar maybe (am being sarcastic…about the shakes, not the alcohol and drugs). i thought of all that i would be missing out on: all the exciting adoption news, all the ups and downs that i can relate to with fost-adopt, all the crafts and recipes that people post about, all the up-and-coming fashion news.
and then i remembered what i was taught about lent: that it owes much of its spirit to the forty days Jesus spent in the desert preparing for his ministry. some say he was “tempted” there, but many would say it was more accurate that he was “tested” in the desert. we “deprive” ourselves of things during lent to bring us back to ourselves, and for me, it is a time to remember that i am not really “deprived” of anything in comparison to so many around the world. so i am going to give up sweets and junk food, but i am also going to give up blogging until easter.
i am going to use this time to get back to myself. i haven’t been quiet about my low self-esteem lately. could be post-adoption blues (although j isn’t yet adopted), could be the fear of the unknown concerning j, could be seasonal affective disorder (it’s been gloomy around here), could be stress at work (why does it come all at once?), could be financial stress. it’s probably all of the above. we literally have a minimum of two appointments a week lately, visits from adoption worker, social worker, counselor, taxes, you name it. i feel like a crazy woman, and am getting run down. i just need to re-focus and become inspired again.
so i hope you’ll come back and visit after the easter bunny has come and gone. i will miss you!
and i’ll miss this too…
p.s. i just recently found out that technically lent doesn’t start until the sunday after ash wednesday? i got kind of excited, thinking i had a few more days of blogging, but no, i will start tomorrow. i. will. not. be. tempted. : )